I took off the message I put on the top of my page yesturday:

I hope whoever broke into my car last night dies a slow, horrible, painful,

death which involves body parts falling off, and rats gnawing on the bleeding

stumps until all that is left is their eyeballs, on which I will happily jump on

in steel toed boots while they are still consious and aware

of what is happening. Before this though I will shove the stereo and amp which

they stole up various unmentionable orafices of their body.

I felt all shitty after that and canceled the camping trip I was going on this weekend too, and spent all weekend sitting around

and brooding. Feh!


Got up this morning at 6am, got ready for work, my carpool buddy came at the

normal time (6:45), and we went into the secure underground parking

lot of my building. Lo and behold, my car passenger door had the window pulled

down, and the lock opened. My $300 stereo, $100 (el cheapo) amp and possibly

more was gone. I didn’t have time to look at that time as I was late for work.

The police said I had to bring the car to them, and I had to go in carpool buddies

truck (it was my week to drive. Now this pisses me off, and rightly

so. My car I don’t believe had theft on it, and of course I don’t have the

serial numbers to the stereo equipment. None of my tapes were taken, and my

school bag was still there too. I’m really glad I didn’t put my climbing/camping

gear in the trunk like I had planned last night! So I’m screwed… I don’t know

if I’ll go camping to Squamish like I planned this weekend… my car is less

than secure, and I’m pissed off. I also have a lot to do as far as getting

this whole thing worked out, and homework etc. I was planning to just

take a break with the homework, but now I don’t know if I can take the break

with my car fubared.

I really hate people.


Well, lately a whole bunch of stuff has been flying around relationship wise, luckily

none of it has been happening to me. Some of the splatters have gotten on me though

🙁, prompting the following thoughts:

With each passing day life continues along. Today might be bad, yesturday worse,

and tomorrow better. We never know what will happen. Each day we fight demons,

our own, other peoples, and each night we must come back home to nurse our wounds.

Some people need others there, some don’t. The people that don’t and that can’t handle

the wounds will call out into the night. The people who don’t need other people and who

can handle the wounds will lick them clean, hope the scars are not too obvious, and hope

that tomorrow the pain is gone. If the pain isn’t gone then that night the whole procedure

is repeated again. Sometimes though these people still need a human touch to still the

pain. These people are the survivors.

We are the survivors.


Well, a couple of little things. I almost got in a heated argument

with one of my co-workers over a comment he made which totally

conflicted with my personal ‘live and let live’ views. I resisted however, as I like

(ok, need) my job.

I heard a good friend of mine is going to do something stupid. I hope she, or

her parents come to their senses soon. It is gnawing at me like you wouldn’t believe.

I have a couple of poems brewing in my mind, but nothing is out on paper yet. Soon though.


Happy new year!

My pages seem to have gained popularity, resulting in my account being filled

by the log file, resulting in ‘local storage charges’ 🙁 So I’ve moved

this section to my other web site.


Haven’t updated for a while, and this is just a minor one anyway…

I’m almost finished exams, but unfortunately, instead of studying economics and

java and things like that, I’m playing with Linux (the

coolest OS in the world). Soon you will be able to access my home computer

from this page! Very cool.


Well, more hell in my life as far as relationships…. I guess I should be

used to it by now. I have had about 2 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours,

and man am I screwed up. At work (where I am now), I just keep on sucking

down the hot chocolate and coffee and wish I had an alarm on my watch to

wake me up after I fall asleep at lunch 🙂

Learnt about client/server stuff in Java last night – very cool.


Well, my birthday was yesterday. It was OK I guess. Another year, some more stuff,

and now I can drink legally everywhere. unfortunately, I don’t drink that much

so that is inconsequential.

Got a C+ on both my English essay and presentation. A B- on my midterm. Not bad,

I guess. Better than I thought.

Oh yea, put another poem on my poetry page


Just put another pic of me on my "about me" page. Hope it doesn’t scare you


Tooo much work 🙁 School, job etc. I’m heading for burn out on a rocket slid

on rails… or something like that. Actually it is kind of nice to have the

stress back — it’s like an old friend.

Spent a lot of money I didn’t have a couple of days ago. But now I have a

P100 with 24 meg RAM and a Mach 64 PCI video card. Old technology I know, but

still. By the way, my network card (ne2000 compatible) doesn’t work anymore.


p>Does anyone know if a Sound Blaster Pro can share IRQ 7 with LPT1?

href=”mailto:alan_bailward@mindlink.bc.ca”>Please tell me.

Someone looked at my page at school a while ago and laughed at the way that

people just open up and tell the world anything and

everything about their lives. I wonder why we do that? Is it a

sense of importance? Is it because we think that if we do it will make us

seem more important… better people. I’m not saying opening up is

bad, but I am wondering why we computer geeks do it to people who we

don’t know and will never see.

Whoops, almost forgot. I’ll have a new pic of me (like you want to see MORE

of me) soon. A friend took one in class last night with one of them funky

digital cameras and mailed it to me the same night.


  • Well, I am “officialy” single again. Don’t know what to think about that.
  • My parents came back from Mexico yesturday. I had the joy of picking them up
    from the airport (1 hour drive). They brought me back some nice T-Shirts and an
    awsome Mexican Blanket.
  • On Tuesday I’m going to meet one of my IRC-friends. A few of us
    live in this area, and she is coming here to visit. It will be
    interesting to see what these people are like in RL.